I wish...

I wish I could still see the beauty of the world
I wish this could become a better place for everyone
I wish people would be selfless
I wish the egoistical nature of humans were just total effed up bullshit
I wish humans could be shaped up by the environment
I wish I knew the truth

People claim for their freedom. Freedom of expression. Freedom of speech. Freedom of properties. Is there a limited freedom for everyone? When you come to think about it, there's gotta be some limited room for all our freedom. I am for freedom. But whom are this freedom for? Everyone?

So AIG bosses were free to get bonuses after the bailout. Sue Morphet was free to triple up her pay, and yet 1850 Pacific Brands workers were layed off. What does this mean?

Fox News never gave a chance for Palestinian side to explain. Are Hamas as bad as some people say? Are Israelis really as bad as what others say? Are people free to talk about what they believe? What IS the truth? Is the truth what you believe to be true? Or there IS the REAL truth out there waiting to disclose itself?

Is this all because of freedom? Should freedom be limited? If freedom were to be curbed, would we ever get the truth?

I truly wish people would think of others more. I want to love the world. I do love it. I do love how it's so amazing and adventurous and challenging and capricious. But I don't like what I see in the newspaper. I like the real world. The world I touch, see, smell, hear, and taste.

And yet, I still want to know the truth. Do what I touch, see, smell, hear, and taste is sufficient for me to know? My reasoning doesn't feel good enough to know what's happening in the world. There are SO many sides of the story. And I want to tell mine too. Would people listen to me? Would they understand me?

Stability

In general, humans reek stability. They want to be stable. They tend to hate fights. I'm not talking about psychopaths here. I'm talking about us. You and me. Of course, a little bit of twist in life would add some colors to life, making it less boring. But stability, as in feeling secure, knowing you have freedom of expression, access to food and clean water, very basic human rights like that. I'm quite sure that you do want this, don't you?

Let's set up a situation. A hypothetical situation (I love that word 'hypothetical'). Have you encountered a friend who's nice to you. He's a good friend. He's always there when you need someone. He shares the same interests with you. He's ready to help you most of the time. But... let's say he's done all that for you just to use you.

Well, indeed you don't have to do much for him. You just have to support him. You say 'well okay, it's easy. I will support him of course, just like how he's supported me'. You'll say 'that's not using! that's just how friendship works'

Apparently this very good friend doesn't share the same interest with you at all. He just pretends all the time. This is a whole deception on friendship, to just creating some sort of mass support from the circle of friends you guys both share.

One day, he puts you as a bait, when he realizes he doesn't need you anymore. He contrives some horrible untruthful story about you being a backstabber (sorry to make it sounds so girly, backstabber, but that's the first thing that comes up. promise, i won't be talking about bitch fight next). He does that because he's realized that he's had enough of your support.

How will you respond to this kind of situation? Will you be 'alrighty, he's been so nice so far. it's okay if he doesn't need me anymore'. Or... 'He's such a dickhead'

What if this friend is the so called 'stability' I mentioned previously. What if the basic human rights have been provided is not purely intended because we need them. But one day, we're going to be shaken by some biggest deceptions we can never prove.

I know this raises many questions like 'what deception, and for what, and who deceives who' but.. yea... I'm just thinking and suddenly this thing sprang up to my mind.

What if we need more than basic human rights. What if we need some pure intention behind all that.

Am I making sense? Or this comes out to be some incoherent rants like my other previous posts so far?

how hard is it

How hard is it to forget something that has become a significant part of your life? You never realize how much you love someone, til he says goodbye. It doesn't have to imply a human being, it could just be an 'it'. An 'it' like the designing course I used to despise by guts, like those plastic people who used to revolt me. Now the hatred, the disgust, and the fear are just gone. What's there are just the longings of these feelings of blunder. Except that they are not blunders anymore, they are anything but forms of love.

Life is paradoxical.